When others is pregnant, they’re in joy.. When I was pregnant they don’t seem to care. No joy in the air. No smile or laughter. Just ignorance and anger here and there. The best they could do is mkin me upset and sad even more and more. Throwing each other’s problem to me. Can’t they just stop for a while and concentrating to me for a while or at least be happy for me? No, it doesn’t seem to cross their mind that it’s a big risk for me to get pregnant yet I still doing it. Can’t they support me? No, they’re to busy with their own life and problem or others. Do they know I’m hurt? No, the only thing crossed their mind is stay away instead of showing me their love. Am I not ur family?
Now that I lost my baby, they mk it even harder. Nothing change much but something come out from her mouth, a mouth of a mother who already had 3 kids, a mouth of a mother of my own, while I was her only daughter, she said,” no, you don’t need to have a baby. You cannot have a baby, your body is rejecting. God is not giving you a baby” seriously mum, is that all you can do best for ur only daughter who’s in grieve? Do you have any idea or even imagine for christ sake, that burying ur own kid is harder than it’s look? Do u know u’re gving me much more pain instead. But then again, you said,” don’t be sensitive, be positive of what I said” I don’t think there’s any positive of those words. It’s easy for you to say, u’re hving 3kids easily, too easily that u doesn’t hv quality time with them.
They said they love me, but instead they find it hard to support my decision or at least pretend to be happy for me. I wish they would change one day. Maybe when I’m not around nemore. People just loooovvveeee to be live in regret. Haeh.. it’s a pain and hard, even harder to smile when they gv their best to others instead of their own. What a life.. U’ll never grateful when they’re around until they’re gone..
Do u think I like being annoying? Do u think I choose to be like this if it’s not bcoz of wat u did. Do u kno how hurt I am seeing anger in ur eyes directed to me? Huff.. Hv mercy on me please, I’m just a woman who hate being hurt,lied to&denigrated. I hate seeing all I’ve done&sacrifices is actually for nothing. I don’t want to come this far for vain. coz I can’t go back, I wish I can, but I can’t. Tell me how to trust u if u keep dishonest to me. Tell me, coz I wish I kno how but I don’t. U’re hurting me too much, too much a man can possibly hurt a woman whom he said the love of his life. Why couldn’t u treat me better than other girls whom u said u don’t love if u do really love me?it’s almost 2 years of our marriage, just almost 2 years but u’ve hurt me again. U said u wouldn’t.
What exactly am I to u? Just tell me what do u really want, be a MAN and tell me, coz I’m lost and u’re losing me, u’re losing us. If u do care. Coz I’m just a plain ordinary woman, who can be tired and hurt. I start faithfully, I start again right when we decided to walk on a new path of life. Something I couldn’t gv before. I gv u the best me. Why can’t u? If u don’t love me just say it, I can take it better than u said I’m the love of ur life but u keep hurting me and let me in a place where I can’t feel secure. Just be a man will ya? Honest is the only thing I ask. Coz I know I’m not good enough for u. I know I will never be. Coz I’m not the one whom u need. Just be a man and tell the truth coz I can totally live with it better than I hv to do all my best but our ship is goin nowhere but sinking bit by bit. I can accept that we can’t turned back time. Just be honest, tell me what u feel and really want, and just play our part the way u want the game to be and move on to our own path. My own and ur own.
Do u hv any idea how miserable I am? I gv what u want with sacrifice. If I don’t it’s just gonna be another excuse for u to do the same mistake. If I do it’s just gonna gv me pressure. I know talking to u is just a waste. Annoying u said, ur excused for ur mistake. I wish things work out differently so I can be another me, but it’s not. U mk me to, u forced me into this. I’m just saying what I feel, I hv to, because u don’t kno if I don’t. A person gotta scream ouch, when they get hurt. It’s atomatically human. So here I am screaming aww and ouch to you. Begging u to please hv mercy on me. I’ve done nothing but always been faithful to you. I’m not perfect, but I’m gving my best. I know it’s not enough for you, but I’m just asking for mercy&honesty that’s all. I’m not asking for love or else coz it’s not something I can ask. Besides, if I am the love of ur life but I keep getting hurt&being dishonest to. Can I please dare myself to politely say can u please just not love me. Coz I can’t stand keep being hurt&insecure. I prefer not being love by you if that what it takes to mk u treat me right, like u treat other girls. Coz we can’t go back nemore. We just hv to work it out, the good way or the harsh way.
I know i started our relationship not based on love, but when we first kiss the feeling was there. Shockingly mk butterflies in me so thrilled that I can’t sleep and keep smiling all day.
Now, 3 years has passed, we’ve been married almost 2 years, not a very long time. But, we’ve been thru tough, thick and thin, good and bad, things others hvn’t been experienced. We strengthen each other. We complete each other. You are the best decision I’ve made in my life. I just wanna say that I’m trully deeply sorry for all the things I’ve done/said bad to you, esp. That I can’t gv u a baby of our own, something u’ve been wanting so bad. The only thing we want. My body failing me. I’m sorry I’m not good enough as a wife, as ur wife.
Thank you so so much, words can’t describe how thankful I am to have u as my husband, my bestest friend, my companion, my everything.. my half of soul.. U complete me too much, u make me whole, u make my life complete and perfect.. Thank you..
The more we spent time together, the more I love u each and everyday. The more I can’t live my life without u. I need you, I need you bad. That’s what afraid me most. The more I love you the more I’m afraid to lost you.. I know sooner or later God will take you away from me or me from you.. I’m scared..
I love you, I love everything about you. I love the way you love me, I love the way you always know how to make me smile, laugh, comfort, special. I love the way you smile, giggle, the way you talk, the way you enlighten me, cheering me, filling me with ur positive aura, filling me with love and care each day,hour,minute. I love the way you just stay beside me, being there for me, words or no words. I love the way you hug me, kiss me. I loooovvveeee everything about you.. And I’m falling in love with you, the same person each and everyday.. By simple little things you do, to big things or nothing I fell again and again and again.. I love you so much, so much bigger than I love anyone in this world, even myself.. I just wish God would gv us much time even when we die, I wish we can still be together like now.. Coz I can’t imagine being alone without you.. I’ll be lost and devastated..
You give me this pain again oh dear Lord, this time even harder. I believe we can handle this, I believe we can stand up and get thru this. All we need is your help to strengthen us dear Lord.. For everything lies ahead of us, I will not look away and run again like I always do. Guide us dear Lord, hold our hands, hug us, be with us in every single step.
Give us a sign which path to choose, what to do. Coz you know we can’t do anything without your guidance. We’re lost Lord.. I am.. I don’t know what else to do, which way to choose, I don’t know anything anymore..
All I ever ask is just a normal, simple and healthy life.. I never ask for too much money, I never ask to be too success in my career. I just want enough here and there, not too much, not less. Just fine.
My life has always been a never ending drama. This healthy issue, something that shouldn’t or couldn’t happen but happened. It dragged me for the past 12 years.
Why can’t I hv a normal life like all people do?? What makes me doesn’t deserve a baby of my own while others deserted their own child?? What makes me worst than them who doesn’t even like children but having a baby of their own??
Why people gets what they want easily while I losing my grip to strings that keeps me alive.
This time I choose to keep my lips sealed. For I know no matter what coming out of my mouth, either it’s my feelings expression or question. I will not get the answer and this things will keep happening again and again, like it always have been for the past 3 years.. So why should I make myself more exhausted than I already am?
Besides, it’s not like I started this with my heart anyway, I just got drown by the river a bit.
When things keep happening, I regret myself because making a wrong decision. I feel sorry for myself for I am gonna be what I see in my mom’s life. I might end-up living a life like my mom. Well,maybe the difference is I’m gonna make another action when it happens. I can’t stop what they do to us. Now I realise I’m not asking the why question again, because I know there is no answer to that.
The only things left is what I have to do prevent sinking like my mom. It’s so sad when u realise in the end you are alone. No one can really u rely on. In the end no one can really not hurting ur heart. Is it what love supposed to do? Love and hurt at the same time?
Too bad I can’t turned back time.. Now I just have to pull myself up, get back on my own feet a.s.a.p and be strong and keep moving forward for myself and my baby..
The clock is ticking, u’re late, but u doesn’t seem to care. Well, it’s okay I don’t gv a damn nemore. Why should I, when u’re not. Why would I, where u doesn’t seem to hv the mutual feelings&effort to me and to urself.
It’s ur life not mine, I’m not the one who get anything. U are, so if u don’t care why should I?I’m just tired.. Huff.. What we had doesn’t seem to matter to you nemore.
Well, as far as I remember u are quite self center, u nvr seem to care bout things or people who really care for u or u just don’t know how to treat them well until they fed up and gone. I don’t know and I’m not really sure when u will change, since u’ve realized it but doesn’t seem to hv an enough effort to fix it.
Well at least I am the one who hv move steps forward, not backward, not staying. After all that u’ve treated me, I really don’t think it’s the things I deserve to get,esp from you.
So, au revoir.. I’ll do it my way, u’ll do it ur way. We’ll see, time will show who in the end is the one who got successful in life, the one who hv a good quality life. I can only pray,hopefully one day u got twitch in ur brain or something to realised it, which hopefully not too late for you. Clearly it’s late already, let’s just hope it’s not really too late and u’ll end up with regret coz there’s nothing u can do anymore.
Without you even notice anything u do especially bad things or things you do because of your ego can effect others, people you care. Even sometimes it is your fault that others have to take the consequences. Some things that you should take. But that’s how the universe work. Someone has to take the consequences.
A parents doing stupid things can cause bad effect to their child. Their child who’s pregnant and without they even remember or notice they are hurting/giving bad effect to their own grandchild, a baby who’s so pure that haven’t seen the world with his own eyes. A baby that come with peace and mission to give light to ur new life.
You are not living this life alone, you could effect your own parents,brothers/sisters, children, grandchildren. People you care about. So, think really carefully before doing or say anything..
Bagus nih….Good for husband and wife !
Dosa yg merusak pernikahan :
a. Suami :
1. Suami tdk berfungsi menjadi pemimpin dan pengayom dgn baik akibatnya saling melukai.
2. Suami gagal menjadikan Istri nmr 1 dlm hidupnya.
3. Suami membandingkan Istri dgn wanita lain.
4. Suami krg disiplin mengontrol emosi dan kebiasaan buruk.
5. Suami gagal memuji hal-hal kecil dari Istri.
6. Suami menolak pendapat Istri.
7. Suami tdk prnh dgn tulus meminta maaf dgn istri
b. Istri :
1. Istri tdk menghargai Suami sbgai otoritas.
2. Istri gagal menundukan diri kpd Suami.
3. Istri gagal menampilkan kecakapan mnsia batiniah.
4. Istri gagal menunjukan rasa syukur kpd Suami.
Kebutuhan seorang Suami :
2. Istri sbgai sahabat.
3. Rumah yg rapi.
4. Istri yg menarik
5. Slg menghargai.
Kebutuhan seorang Istri :
1. Kasih dan penghargaan.
2. Diajak bicara.
3. Jujur dan terbuka.
4. Keuangan yang cukup.
5. Komitmen thdp keluarga.
Kepala keluarga yg berhasil dlm keluarga maka keberhasilan yg lain akan mengikuti,
Kepala keluarga yg gagal dlm keluarga maka kegagalan lain akan mengikuti.
If u care about family, broadcast this. It will save a marriage.
Hanya 1 fungsi yg berjalan baik pun tidak akan berhasil, harus kerja sama antar 2 fungsi yg baik baru bs berhasil. Seperti mendayung perahu/meng-goes sepeda.
Ada akibat ada sebab. Bljr berbesar hati untuk mengakui kesalahan, walau terkadang itu sulit,bahkan mengakui terhadap diri sendiri. Tp harus diingat, kesalahan dan keegoisan membawa dampak buruk terhadap org2 sekitar yg anda sayangi.
Perlu anda ingat, hari ketika anda memutuskan untuk berkeluarga, hidup anda bukanlah hanya untuk anda sendiri saja. Jgn melihat kebelakang. Memundurkan 1 detik saja kt tidak bisa. Bahagia dan tidaknya kt adalah bagaimana kt menyikapi hidup kt. Mslh selalu ada. Tp jika hati damai, segalanya bs berjalan dgn baik tanpa beban. Ikhlas.. Hidup akan menjadi lebih mudah.
Semua pny kewajiban masing2, saling menunjuk tdk akan menyelesaikan mslh. Tiada manusia yg sempurna, tp kt diberikan hati dan pikiran oleh Tuhan untuk menjadi org yg lebih baik setiap harinya, mata untuk melihat,telinga untuk mendengar. Bljr setiap hari dr sekitar. Hanya energi positif yg akan membawa energi positif2 lainnya untuk hidup kt dan sekitar. Bukankah lelah jika energi negatif terus mengitari hidup anda?